so Justin and i were going along peachy...ish. he was kinda weird about hanging out and stuff, but i figured whatever, and then one thing led to another and we ended up having sex. then the next day he was mean to me, not like physically. just things he was saying. then he'd ask me to come over and then would quit talking when i got ready to come over.

anyways. this guy bobby who lives about 20 minutes west of my parents (i live and hour and a half east of my parents) added me to myspace, well we figured out we don't know eachother but w/e we should lol... the other day we started talking and we like a lot of the same things, then he said to me "my god if you tell me you like muddin campin n huntin i'm setting a wedding date" ok well i love love muddin, love campin, haven't been huntin but i like the meat and i like goin target practicin=] so we met for the first time yesterday and hung out. so he met me at the gas station lol, and then we took my car to one of his houses haha, and then his mom and step dad picked us up and we all squeezed in this truck, so i sat on his lap=] lol then me and him went and picked up his brother Kevin and me Bobby and Kevin went to Bobby's sisters, she's lesbian, and cool=] lol... anyways so i sat in the middle there and back, it was fun. so simple yet amazing. he calls me babe already. we're meant to be it seems like=] gah!

tonight omg he was so cute. i asked what  he was doin and he said nothin he was supposed to go with friends to meet some girl they were gonna hook him up with, but he ditched them. so i was curious. did he just not want to, or was it for me? and it was for me!!! and then he said i give him butterflies oh my god=] how cute! i feel like i can trust him we aren't even really together and he wont hook up with some girl. aww=]

so i think that i actually do like the guy that i said i didn't like, Justin. he's not super cute or anything, but he's a sweetheart for the most party. although he has his dumb moments. haha. we're not dating, but we're pretending to date lol. this is because in my hometown there is some really shitty rumors going around about me, and if i have a boyfriend, odds are they will go away. and stop. and Justin agreed to help me out=] i was supposed to hang out with him tonight but he doesn't feel good so supposed to be tomorrow. i'm excited hah i feel like im in jr. high all over again=]